I realize now what happened.
I thought that by letting you reflect
your Self in my me,
you would be happy,
communicate,
feel free.
I really believed
that the best way to help you,
through your judgments
through your narrow,
critical tough view
was to keep my voice silent, so you could hear yours speak,
so you would feel space and friendship
so you could blink
so you could be you
and perhaps in return love a little bit of me.
What a delusion!
What a mistake!
I never considered what nonsense this would make!
I never anticipated that by letting you think
why I am You, why You are I
you then would see
not who am I
but who you are
and thought was I
I realize now
by doing this
I stole you from a greater bliss
to really know
to truly see
to know me well,
reality.
In my blindness,
I did not guess for one second,
that from all the images you were going to project,
it was the darkest one that you would choose to reflect,
your worse fears,
your most hidden tears
your most human vices
your most unconscious madness.
So this time I am going to speak my mind.
You are going to know me.
Because you see
If it is true
And You are I and I am You
It is possible then, that now, in return,
you see your light
perhaps this time
you choose to love
what you don’t know
if at least, just a a little,
once more.